method to cope with suffocation

It feels suffocating to wait another 8 more months before I can officially leave this hell hole! But don't worry I have a strategy to help me go by. I'm going to list down all the things to look forward to at work to let time pass. Same time not to make me look as if I'm passing time. Can't help feeling that way. Like today I stick on  my table something to help me go by the day. It was making my kids happy during ICS. Next year can be training my trainee. Happy things. Not degrading things like calling parents stack of work. No need to repair relationships if your boss don't push. For what if I'm leaving anyway. I'm actually more worried about handover work if my trainee would to leave first.  But let's hv him worried about that. Why me. Haiz I should live a more carefree life. Don't need to feel guilty making him suffer.