Introvert

I've been interested on the topic of introverts extroverts and ambivert. So I've been self observing and self learning about what makes or breaks my mood and tried to figure out why. I realised I'm somewhat a severe introvert. In addition to my depression, my moods haywired. So sometimes it's hard to figure out why I'm in an irritable mood of tears when I had my alone time earlier. I tried to experiment various ways, like, having all the way active time and alone time in the end. The result, worst as I regress into tears and lots of pain. I also reflected when I was young, how did I survived. I usually had a routine of TV and later quiet plus darkness at the end of the day. Ironically I hated talking to my boyfriend then. I didn't want to hear myself talk. That's my introvertness telling myself. It's quite time now.

I had to figure a balance to survive this depression cum severe introvertness. Now that I'm married with a child. The routines doubled or tripled more, so how am ever going to find alone time to recover my severe introvertness?

Do I need to change, and adapt to changes? I think that's a bad idea because it did cause me to be more depressed. Of course talking to my husband an extrovert did not help. Because let's face it extroverts dont understand introverts and vice versa. He did gave the suggestion to change and adapt to changes. I hv doubts about that.

I think I do wana learn and read up more about extroverts. Especially on why do they need to talk and make others laugh. Why they feel weird if it's too much quiet? Sometimes I also wondered how do end up falling in love and marrying an extrovert?  Or wells...