I dont know why im feeling like this. Abit saddened that im not grouped in one of the popular tables. Although i wont be able to come anyway. But it saddens me think that im like an outcast after so many wasted years here. What am i thinking still wanting to do part time sdr here. I dont owe the sch anything. in fact the school was nothing but depressing for me. No sense of direction and purpose. Alot of times i wondered if its even my fault the management is like this. Kenneth brings alot of memories. Even though he is strong willed. He alao got similar fate as me. Is it really the management, control issues? I feel regret. But i manged to do 5 years out of it. I learn something but it damages me of some sort. I donno how can i bounce back like i used to at bgps. I mean im already after 30. Age is catching up. I know i have strengths. I also know being here dampen my strength. And things becomes expectations rather then appreciation. I know i have to prepare myself on what comes ahead. Like it or not i nees to be prepared taking up what i may not like. Things not exactly wihin my jobscope.