Today i i don't seem to have the mood to talk or meet anyone. Already i know i finish late for meetings today. And he is already on top of it. Asking me what i want to raise when he already listed all the things thats supposed to raised. I feel very much inferior in my own school. Everywhere i turn i see people judging me comparing me w how much better he must be. It makes me feel negative and forced me to look at areas im not good at or things i hvnt done. It sucks to always feel like this. I know i have no place here. I just want to dissappear. But i feel i always hv eyes watching me. Eyes judging me.

Im trying my best to be positive. I know. Mahbe prepping for my sdr next week should ease my negativity. Hopefully. To hell if he want to score brownie points for meeting later. I don care. I hope not to let this effect me. He should lead right he's taking over anyway.  I feel that im always winning. Becoz im out. U hv to deal with all this crap. That leaves me worried because i deserve some recognition at least. But i feel i had none. Positive... try to be positive. Think of sdr. Think of engagement matters.