Heartbroken

There's nothing more heartbroken if your own friend says your competitor is better. I felt like crying. Hvn't you at least seen my good work? How can you just say "he is MORE proactive". You are comparing against his mentor. How dare you judge me!! OMG... All these years of hardship, this is what I get. Soo heartbroken.

Some say, I shut people out and lose friends easily. I admit I am choosy, but I am careful. I admit I am shy, but I am also sensitive. I admit I am quiet, but I am a thinker. You don't see me making impressions here and there, but I am aware, I am no boot-licker. You don't see me proactive, but I am a perfectionist. 

I am just waiting to get put of this he'll hole!